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Monday, April 30, 2007

hey hey!

okie, so everythign is FINE now!
hahaha.

just as i thought you're just busy,
i was fucking wrong about my thinking and mysel,
and YOU!
and just in case you are wondering if i'm talking about you or not,
well, don't even bother confronting me,
cause i can swear upon myself that i'd use my words to bring the fuck our of you down.
so to just spare you from getting all emo and shit,
don't even think of messaging me rightt now!

just a few days ago,
i got your message.
do you know overjoyed i felt?!
although i know you messaged me because you needed something,
i am glad you ACTUALLY remembered me!
but, NO!
going to your blog today was a big hug fuckign bang on my shit face!
you know why?!
cause i just realise that I, Bulner Amelia Shin Ying, am nothing to you!
you know,
i am VERY tired of trying to be there for you.
telling myself that you need me,
and i cannot leave just like that.
but you know, i am so sorry for decieving myself!!!
damn me! just DAMN ME!

and and,
let me put this to you straight,
I'M NOT the one who's all busy and corked up.
YOU'RE are the one!!
just a message and i'd ditch EVERYTHING to look for you.
just in case you are running away from anything,
let me remind to you again,
I'M NOT THE ONE WHO IS BUSY,
IT IS YOU!
you HAVE to understand and accept the fact!
as much as i feel like screaming and bawling everything out rightt now,
i know,
i shouldn't!

OH YEAH!
and just so you know,
i am NOT mentioning your name or talking to anyone about it,
because i don't want people to think that you're the 'bad' one.
and and,
i don't like people pointing a finger at you either!
but i know you know, I AM TALKING ABOUT YOU!

i just cursed my day away like that,
great me!
hahahahahaha.

thankfully,
Zan called me just now and said we are watching Spiderman tomorrow together!
heh.
thanks Drake and Zan,
at least you guys still remember me,
from the bottom of your heart! ((:

i just found school really enjoyable rightt now!
and and,
i so miss everything and one from secondary school!
oh, i'm talking about 5/2 kids! geg.(:

God bless,(:

just as a smile surface,
you smashed me down with your hurtful words!
TAGS!!!!!!!
ESTHER : hey hey, everything is fine over here too! heh. only that i am just a little annoyed by an issue! ahahaha! home sick?! come on lady, all you have to do is see my picture and WAH LAH! all home sickness is gone! heh.(: eh, why you call me atm and fatty huh huh? hahaha! (: hey, study heard alright,i will be catching up with you soon! (:
SPYKE : that's it ah you! call me the fattiest fatty! hahahaha! (: see you tomorrow, hopefully!
SHUWEN : bitcho! hahaha. i miss you too la! eh eh, go out together soon la, what say you? hahaha. when you end early and want dinner, just let me know ya'll! hahaha. see you around my bitcho!hahah,
CRYSTAL : yo KIMCHI! hahahaha! hahahah, yeah yeah, i update already okie? hahaha,.yenna test? what test?! hahah.lazy la.

LOVE, ameliabulnerxingying
6:45 PM